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I deleted my whole friends list because I'm tired of filtering everything out and because I'm paranoid and I don't actually know a lot of you.
So please comment if you want to stay so I can re-add you. If you don't I don't care, I'm leaving it up to you... but there are some of you I care about a lot and who I'd like to stay in touch with.
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Sometimes I just get this urge to drive until I run out of gas.
Sometimes on the way to school I think about driving right past and over the mountains, just to keep driving and driving and driving. I don't even like driving that much, but I love the feeling of being in control of something a little reckless, and the speed and the way changing gears feels. Like I'm harnessing the energy of this living, pulsating thing... but not completely. There's always that feeling that a mental miscalculation or momentum or a mechanical error might just change the control balance.

And the way driving is just another way to be caught between destinations.





I'm An Adrenaline Junkie.
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"People don't keep journals for themselves. They keep them for other people, like a secret they don't want to tell but they want everyone to know." -Marilyn Manson